Yeah, i decicied I'd come back, just to see what's what. And you know what's what? Over 5 THOUSAND messages. I'm gone 6 months and I have 5,000 messages. Yep.

But seriously, the real reason I came back was for the journal.  I know not to to many people read it but it's comforting being able to rant about everything.  And this is one of the few websites I'm on that my parents don't stalk me on.

But I need some opinions here guys.  Kyle and I have been dating for a year next Tuesday and well he sorta asked another girl to the movies.  He says that it was just a friend thing and he wanted me to go but knows I'm not into superheros (since it would be going to the midnight premire of the new Batman). But this girl is his Ex. Yes, she's the one who set him and I up but she's still an ex.  And she's done this stuff to me before. Like I was talking to a Zach Lanzer guy, she found out, got his number and got him to like her instead of me.  Last summer I found out when me and Zach Kessler were practically dating, she started talking to him and got him to like her.  So yeah I'm pretty jealous of Kyle asking her over me.  But Kyle did invite me after all only after he knew how hurt I was.  So now all 3 of us are going together. Horrary! *Insert Saracasm here*  I just don't want to sound like I'm over reacting but I really am hurt by this.  He's never done anything to stab me in the back and this just feels like he did.  

Gosh the more I talk the more pathetic I sound :/

I haven't really talked to her about it, I'm sorta afraid to. But I'm going to make it pretty damn clear that Kyle's with me. And that's not going to change anytime soon. But yeah I'm just afraid if people see them together, they'll start talking.  Cause she would look 10 times better on  his arm than me.  I mean c'mon she's a swimmer, with a swimmer body and I'm well...not a swimmer and a far from a swimmer body. Meh.

Another thing that really bothers me is that Kyle is like obsessive over if I still talk to Zach.  He's my FRIEND. Ya know like you and Meghan are? He still seems to think me and him have a thing.  It's really quite annoying. I go to him cause I can talk to him and he'll straight up tell me what to do.  And we've been through so much.  And we've known each other for so long.  But it doesn't help that Zach swears up and down he's gonna take me on a date since he never got to.  But I'm not allowing it.  Guh.


So yep. I'll be back on here every once in a while. Probably just to make a journal maybe I'll get back into writing again. Who knows.